Things happened. I can’t talk about them just yet (I might not ever).
But the day happened and I’m ready for a new one to start!
I was heartbroken through-out the story.
She fell down the stairs and lost a child, and blamed herself. She told herself that she would be a terrible mother and left her husband, who loved her and never blamed her.
I love that he did everything he could to bring her back.
The surprise pregnancy wasn’t much of a surprise but it is a blessing in disguise.
It was a fast read, but a beautiful one!
I need a vacation. Badly. Things just suck right now. So, I’m not not checking out Lufthansa flights, or anything like that, but I’m ready to just take off and go somewhere else.
I’m needing the vacation badly, though. I know I’ve mentioned it, but I felt it needed to be said again.
Yesterday, I got the news that my grandfather had passed away. It wasn’t that it was unexpected. He’d been dealing with cancer for several years, and we all knew the end was close. But it just feels like it happened faster than it should have, or something.
My grandfather wasn’t biologically my grandfather. He’s the father of my step-mom. I consider her my mom, though (in all ways but biological). He always accepted me for me, and encouraged me to be the very best that I could be. Because of him, I found my love of writing. This year’s NaNoWriMo will definitely be dedicated to him.
I’m not able to go to the funeral for him. The kids have school, and Josh has to work. I know myself, and high stress situations, and this is definitely going to be a high stress situation. My Mammaw is a little nuts, as is my aunt and my sister. The only sane one was my grandfather, and my mom. Without him, the whole dynamic has a risk of falling apart, and I don’t want to see that. I don’t want my kids to see it.
So, we’re going to send edible foods to them, or something like that. Thankfully, my parents understand, and my amazing grandfather would understand as well. He always said that school was the most important thing, and that you have to take care of your family. This is how I’ll be taking care of my family.
Pappaw/Big Jerry, I’m going to miss you. You were one of the cornerstones of my life, that kept me from going too far over the edge. You’re always going to be in my thoughts. I love you!
I’ve been quiet. Really quiet. On the blog at least.
I stopped the daily vlogging. I’ll be making more videos, once I find the Firewire cord for the tower, if it fits. Old tower did. We’ll see. This laptop doesn’t have that ability. I have four USB 3.0 ports but no Firewire. None of the ones I looked at had them. I’m searching for that ability so I can use the REALLY NICE camera. Suggestions. The camera we have HAS a USB connection but it doesn’t work that way. Uses mini-DVs. Yeah, I want to upgrade but we just upgraded the laptop, so unless someone gives us the money for it, it’s not going to happen.