I deserve the love.
I deserve the love.
I deserve the love.
I deserve the love.
Maybe if I keep saying this to myself, maybe one day I’ll actually believe it. Maybe if I keep saying it to myself, maybe I’ll stop beating myself up for actually being alive. Maybe if I keep saying it, maybe, just maybe, I’ll [...]

I’ve got a theme “waiting in the wings”. It’s the “Eye of the Beholder” from Themes ‘n Dreams. I like the theme. I think it’s absolutely gorgeous
Yesterday, after Josh got home, I had a complete and total meltdown. Not pretty. Not fun. That’s the main reason I’m looking into switching pills. I [...]

Why must someone who’s 5′4″ and a 115 pounds continually think that she’s fat? WHY?
That person is me. I’m that little. Right smack dab on the small side of a good weight for my height. Curves in good places. So why do I continually think I’m this gross and fat creature. Josh loves my body. [...]

Manda had a wonderful entry up about child abuse. I made a comment, and I feel this need to go even more into the subject.
My comment:
I wasn’t sexually abused as a child, as far as I know (there’s a lot about the 3 year period between my parents divorce and my dad getting custody of [...]

Everyday, when you’ve got bi-polar, it seems to be a struggle to find happiness. I get frustrated and depressed so easily. I also can easily slip into a manic episode, if I’m not careful. With me being un-medicated, though, I feel I have a better grip on it, at least better than I did when [...]