We made a choice that we were going to not just stay at home this vacation. So, when my boss found me a good deal for TWO DAYS of passes for Worlds of Fun, we took advantage! Madi got to take a friend because we weren’t able to do anything for her birthday!
I’m watching the episode of Charmed where Barbas, the demon of fear, is introduced. Fitting viewing right, when I’m writing, and scared I’m not going to finish even my daily goal. Fitting when I’ve got a list of things to do, and I’m worried I won’t do it right. Fitting when we’re looking into buying a house, and I’m not sure we’re going to make payments.
Every day we deal with fear. Fear of leaving the house and not coming back home. Fear of losing a family member before we get to talk to them next. The fear of going to sleep and never waking up again. Fear is a part of life, and you can use it to knock yourself down, or you can use it to your advantage.
My biggest fear is not making it, in any form. Sometimes that fear just overwhelms me until I can’t breathe. Its normal, according to doctors and psychologists, and all those people who charge $500 an hour to say “and how does that make you feel.” Anyways, my goal, for today, and the next week, is to concur one fear. That fear is that I can’t reach my goals when it comes to writing. I can do this, I know I can do this. I have faith in myself, and others have faith in me. It’s just that I don’t always have that confidence in myself.