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Struggle Bus

I’m gonna be honest and real.
I’ll admit it. I don’t have a lot of weight to lose. Even on my small frame, these extra 10-15lb that I keep losing and gaining don’t drastically change my shape.
But this program? It works. I dropped some of the weight so fast, I got scared. I panicked. I stopped tracking. I stopped following. I binged.
I didn’t lie on my tracker. I just didn’t use it.
I didn’t weigh myself. I didn’t take care of me. ?
I put on half the weight I lost. I blame it on the water retention. Yeah, some of its that. Humidity and my body do not get along. It freaks out and keeps all the water. I can pee 2 times an hour, and I’ll still have swollen ankles like I ate 4lb of salt. I haven’t. I’m not a huge fan of salt. When I was pregnant, yes (no, not pregnant. IUD ?).
Yeah, some of it was because good God, those DOMs were killer. I had to rest 2 days before I could bend over to tie my own shoes. Ouch!
But most of it was me. ? ? ?
I didn’t trust the system. Instead of following the plan and adding extra snacks (I did buy SMART snacks. KiND bars that fit the suggestions, Beachbars, etc), I binged on Skittles. And Caramel creme Hersheys.
So, I was down for May as a whole but I lost progress I was making.
Now, I could quit and say “this is too hard” or I can breathe, take a look at me, take stock, and start again.
So, today starts Day 01 all over again. Today, I’m back in the saddle.
Oh, I’ll probably get a treat at the pool, and I have a couple of cartons of Halo Top my husband is demanding to be eaten, but I’m not going to beat myself up for the bumps, and when the weight starts to melt off again, I’ll be adding in those snacks that are a smart choice. Not because I want to “deprive” myself but because I want to nourish myself.
I can’t even use work as an excuse for not eating right. I’m all morning shifts (earliest start is 6a. Latest start is 645a.)
So, if you’re struggling, one way or the other, you’re not alone. Even if you feel like you are (I understand. I do too!)
Okay, long post got long ?

How Is It Almost June?

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Yeah, I’m going back to a bullet journal Surprised smile Yeah, I don’t know. I need more flexibility and sometimes I need some dailies, without having to add more to the current planner. I love how this cover page came out, as well. I used a kit from Aimee Harrison Designs.

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