Okay no more posting with a migraine. Stress is really getting to me, and I think I was just a little pissed off. Things are better. A lot of it was Josh told me what the death certificate said as the cause of death: pulmonary embolism. Either from the colitis or a heart attack. I [...]

Josh walks away when I walk into a room. He ignores me when I talk, though he gets pissy if I walk away when he is. He never wants to be around me or the kids. What the hell is my purpose except for a ranting board it seems? Yesterday was the ONLY day he [...]